I never imagined this situation would happen in my life. After I graduated University, I went to Canada (Calgary and Vancouver) for studying English and wrestling for a year and half. And after came back to Japan, I worked as social studies teacher and wrestling coach at high school for two years. I can remember all good and bad memories like happened yesterday.
When I found out of my disease, I despaired of my life. When a doctor told me that I should have a heart transplant, I asked my family to leave the room, then I weeped uncontrollably. After a while my sister and dad sat down near by my bed without saying anything. My mom gripped my hand and said ‘Don’t worry, I will protect you no matter what happens’
Although I decided to struggle with my heart condition and tried to be positive, I still couldn’t accept what happened to me. There is a song ‘I dreamed a dream’ from Les Miserables. When I listened to the lyric ‘I had a dream my life would be. So different from this hell I’m living’, it was first time for me to cry aloud.
At first I believed that I would recover very soon, but it didn’t happen. After that I wanted to leave a hospital and just continue to live by taking medicine, but now that is not an option too.
Now I have two options . Having drops and staying in a hospital for years until a transplant or having an artificial heart operation, then go home. So I chose the second one. However there is no guarantee that I will be able to survive with an artificial heart until the transplant, because there are risks of complications; like blood clots and infections. Moreover the average waiting period to have a heart transplant in Japan is three to five years. This waiting list is getting longer.
What I want now is just to spend time with my family, girlfriend and awesome friends. Also I want to find a job again and live as a normal person.
Thank you to my family and girlfriend. I am a weak man. Sometimes I just pretend to be positive otherwise I will be so sad and go crazy. I wouldn’t be able to make this without their support.
Aug 13 2015